Sunday, December 8, 2013

All Alone with You

top, jumper skirt; Liz Lisa, boots; unbranded

When I'm feeling blue, I dress up the way I want and took pictures at my secret place. Wearing my favorite dream dress; Liz Lisa Jumper skirt in sapphire blue. I can never stop saying how flattering this dress is, how comfy it is, how classic and versatile it is. Definitely a purchase I will never regret.

If one were to take a look at my current playlist, they'd assume that I'm in the middle of depression or something. Well, I'm not. I just naturally fall in love with depressing, tears-inducing, heart-breaking, earth-shattering, song. It doesn't have to be ballad because Evanescence's 「Bring Me to Life」 is obviously not a ballad. 「All Alone with You」 by EGOIST has been on endless loop too, along with Matsushita Yuuya's re-arrangement of 「Hallucination 」. From western song, Imagine Dragon's 「Demon」 & 「Monster」, also, ZEDD feat. Foxes' 「Clarity」 also reside in my playlist. They're perfect songs when you feel trapped, suffocated, like you're in the middle of the dark, but at the same time, they're also telling you that there's someone in this world extending their hands for you, there's someone in this world who will stay, who want to stay with you. 

自分のために自分の罪を背負ってくれる人がいればどれだけ幸せになるだろう?
たとえ歩いていける道は間違えてだとしてもずっと側にいて、一緒に歩いてくれて、「一人じゃないよ」とそれすら言ってくれる人がいれば多分もう何も要らない。
そんなはずなのに彼にとってそんな人がいるのに自分の雄志に目が眩んで自分の居場所を失いたくないからと言ってその人の存在を無視してしまった。
でもその人はまだ彼の側に付いてきて一緒に間違い道を歩いてくるね。
そんなに自分のことを考えずに暗闇に捨てて、たとえそれは罪だと解りつつ「せめて一人にさせたくない」と考えて自分の手を汚れた。
彼に関してその人が感じてるのは「愛」じゃないとどんな気持ちでしょうか?
見返りでも求めないただ側にいさせるだけ、ただ一人にさせたくないだけ、ずっと味方だよ、
ただそんな気持ちで動かせる
もし私にもそんな人がいればもう何も望まない。
3 comments on " All Alone with You "
  1. So pretty!!! I love the way you modeled the dress. :)

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  2. That dress is sooooooooo pretty :) And those pictures are stunning. These really could be in a magazine! :)

    xxx Merry Christmas

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